So I know that it been half of forever. But this time I have a really good excuse. I am expecting our second little one in August (the 12th). And unlike with Jake, this time I was really sick for the first three months. That would lead me to believe it's a girl, but today at my ultrasound it was defiantly showing "boy" load and proud. So I beg your forgiveness for the lacking in my blogging.

It's been an exciting, but nerve racking 18 weeks. To be honest I think I had prepared for this child to also have spina bifida. For us parents that only know what it's like to have a child with a disability we almost have to accept the worst case scenario when we try for another child. We're a higher risk for a second baby with the disorder, and unless we're willing to accept that outcome you can't rightfully make the choice to try again.

That said, we've had a detailed ultrasound at 16 weeks, and what development they could see (most of the spine) everything looks "normal". Also my blood work has all returned with no abnormalities. That said it's hard to know how to act with an uncomplicated pregnancy. I am only used to the stress and emotional ups/downs with complications. My mom said I didn't seem excited to find out that everything looks good to this point. The only way I can explain it is "I don't know what to do with such an easy pregnancy. I feel like I should be "doing" something. Like I was prepared for another emotional rollercoaster and now I'm just suppose to go home and enjoy being pregnant" it's hard to get my head around.


Life is crazy as always. But we're working on some changes that will hopefully bring some sanity to the speed we live at. I have yet to return to the hospital, but am working part-time with my photography and loving it. I am missing the nursing, especially as all my girlfriends start returning to the hospital from their maternity leaves this month.

We're so thankful for Jake everyday. Nothing can explain how much we love him. It's impossible to imagine loving another child as much after all we've been though with him. I know we will, but it will be so different. But maybe that's exactly what we need.

Jake is working on his walking. It's the only thing keep him from being "normal" at this time. The last few months have been big steps for him though, he will walk with your hands (2 hands) most anywhere. I can see that he's starting to understand that walking will give him the chance to get places he hasn't been able otherwise. Keep praying for him in this area.

We will be going on a family vacation in April for 2 weeks. We really need it, both personally and more so on a family level. I pray it will be a time to reconnect as a couple and family. Any to just enjoy Gods glory.

Thanks again for all those that have faithfully followed our journies. We are looking forward to the next chapter of God's plan for us.

Mel